Focus!

Staying focused isn’t the hard part. I can focus on anything set before me but is that what I need to do? No way! If you are believing for a miracle, whether it be for a physical healing, financial breakthrough or an immediate need financially. Sometimes you are believing for a due promotion or direction . Maybe it is a dream of yours you are seeking to see the fruition of.
Keep your sweet beautiful eyes and your thoughts on just that. Kind of have tunnel vision with it. When you are in a tunnel driving you have light to see the road , your path, but you absolutely cannot see anything outside of that to distract you. This is not impossible to do. Hard sometimes yes, just like driving through a tunnel can be stressful for some people. Sometimes we have to remember whet it is that is at the end, the actual thing that we had focus of. We have to think of the reward, the celebration of not getting distracted and winning, reaching that dream, getting that miracle. Don’t give up. Stay focused, refocus you, we, can do it. With Him!!

Grieving

Grief is inevitable. The thing is, you don’t grieve the loss a loved one for a week or two and then you’re done. You may think you are, but that’s not how it works. For me anyway. See, my mom passed away in May 2017 and then my dad in May 2018. I have days that I go on with my daily life even though I miss them.

A few days ago I started feeling more sad or emotional about my mom and dad not being here. They’ve missed so much. They eagerly awaited the day my daughter would have children. My mom never experienced this with us and my dad made it through most of the pregnancy time of my daughter’s first born. They loved the grands and great grands dearly.

So, I could feel the intensity rising of my sadness. A few days into this, out of the blue, as I call it, I was consumed with grief. I couldn’t not. So, I shed a couple years but mostly had deep thoughts and a burden of wanting them with me. Now, I know this is not possible and truly would not want them to come back to suffer by no means. But, I miss them so much sometimes that it hurts very deep. My heart aches.

People say it gets easier as time goes by, that time heals. I don’t necessarily believe this. I think there is a grief for loss so deep that is always a part of you after losing someone you loved with such magnitude. It’s not that it’s easier for me, it’s that I’ve learned and am still learning to navigate through life without two people I always knew to be here.

We all know death comes, but you can only prepare to a certain level. After that, you let the Lord take you through. It’s definitely not easy, He never said it would be. Some days don’t feel doable. But, as hard as it might be, they are doable. Breathe.

Hanging Tough

Pain! There is so much wrapped up in that word. For me personally it is a harsh, unforgiving four letter word that makes me cringe. We have all had pain, of some sort, in our life. Regardless of the type of pain though it is just that! It is still pain. It hurts. It can be excruciating or mild. Sometimes we can get through our pain easy peasy while other times we find ourselves on the threshold of giving up because we feel as though we absolutely cannot endure any more. It has to stop at whatever cost at this point. The pain is overwhelming and has totally consumed you and all that you are. You surrender to,give in and give up the future you. And then… You somehow take in another deep breath and are able to hang tough. You shout, scream or whisper your plea for help. And help is there, getting you through the trenches of this debilitating situation you are in, pain, whatever the cause.